~wooshCOOKIE

I have photoshop now!! Isn't that grand!! WAnna know the shittyness of it tho I have artist block. I can't draw for shit right now. Trust me I've tried. It's so annoying. I'm so sad about this. Sigh. All the things that give me inspiration aren't here. It's so sad that the smallest things can make me unfocused enough to not draw. ((my laptop is supper dusty...how it's closed when I'm not using it..LAME)) I don't get to had out with goria..EVER and that makes me sad. I just don't have time to do much other then be at Phonsos or my moms. I want so badly to paint. It hurting me..but all those paints that I bought are gone which depresses me so much cause i was so happy when I bought them. Anyway. I still feel some what stressed and awkward. From what? Fuck if I know. I just do. I dis like it so much. Also this is gonna sound ultra lame...but I get a lot of inspiration from love and loved ones and for some reason...I haven't felt much love. I want so badly to cuddle with someone or just sit and talk about nothing with someone that I just enjoy being around ((and of course someone that can just enjoy being around me)) Me and Tommy sat outside last night and just talked about random stuff Halloween and high school. It was nice he didn't seem bored and wanting to hurry and go inside even tho he was being bitten by bugs. I felt calm and happy again. I might draw that today while in class. sigh. I need more moments like that!!!